Stupid Heart
I hate my stupid heart these days. It doesn't make any sense that I can still love someone as much as I do, when they have been so careless with my heart. I cry so much, it's ridiculous actually. Burdman was making fun of me for it today actually... we hung out last night, first time since early February, I definitely needed it. But I barely drank and was still a mess listening to some of these songs he was playing. I just want to escape the sadness. I didn't want to come back from Miami whatsoever. That trip was amazing, it was so nice to spend a solid amount of time with Shazz and Twinny and to get to know some of the people in Twinny's life. This Friday marked three years of being legally divorced and I paid down the last $3,653 of the $25K that asshole of an ex-husband left me to deal with. It feels so damn good to be done with that, and I just feel so very ready for the next chapter. The Friday before the Miami trip I was with my twin, love monkey, and shazz and