What Now?
Holy cow. It's been nearly five months since I've written in here! That's nuts. I think that's a really good testament to how much better I've been feeling about my life overall. That trip really was an awesome reset. I still have bad days, and I guess that's really just life, but I no longer feel so certain that I missed my shot at happiness with Him. I think for a while I was angry at the whole situation, feeling like I had left my Sailor to ensure I wasn't settling in my life, and then I fell for Him, and it crashed and burned and it felt like I was doomed to settle because no one would ever be Him. This summer I went on a few dates and there were a few new men in the picture, but nothing serious. I predominantly stayed single. Which feels like progress, however I definitely felt the most lonely at points this summer. I missed Phoenix like crazy and continued to wish we'd met maybe this summer, or even next summer. That whole thing feels extremely...