The Crazy Fiery Wild One

So Phoenix and I decided to stay together and work on things, and they have definitely gotten better, but we both aren't sure if this is something that will evolve. And with all the people I'm meeting through school and this next chapter in my life, I'm starting to wonder if investing my time in something that we definitely know doesn't have the long term future...am I wasting time? Even if I'm really happy with him? How can you definitively say something won't evolve when you're still learning each other? On top of my own reservations with him, I have all these other emotions tied up with other men and it's certainly not helping. I've always been a firm believer that once you let someone in to your heart, they're there forever, it's just the amount of space they take up that changes with time. I definitely do still feel like this is true, but geez is it getting crowded in there. When I told burdman that I'd reconciled with Phoenix, h...

I broke up with Phoenix last night...I told him I still wanted to see him, but that I just can't continue trying and hoping for more that he clearly can't offer right now, that I can't keep putting myself out there only to feel rejected. That if he wants to see me, it will be welcomed, but that I expect him to make it happen. We just reached this point where it wasn't fun and easy anymore and I just don't have the mental capacity to hunker down and get invested and work through this. There's just too much else going on in my life, especially when I didn't want to be in a relationship in the first place. I'm bummed about it, definitely, but this really doesn't hurt compared to everything else I've been through. Plus with the "break" we took and him just continuing to push me away I'd already reached this place of indifference. We started the convo on the phone, and I finished it via email. I'm still struggling with being ab...