Now Is All I Have
So it's about time for an update... Things are still progressing with Phoenix and quite nicely actually. It's gotten a bit more serious lately but it hasn't scared me off, but it has caused me to really evaluate my feelings. I had a convo with the birdman recently where we discussed that I may not actually really know what love is to a degree... that I thought I loved the Sailor and then the things I felt with Him were so much deeper than any of that had ever been but then how much of that was real considering the circumstances? Phoenix used the L word while falling asleep last week and apparently I have muttered it too. He asked me about it on Saturday and I basically ended up telling him that right now I don't trust myself and that the next time I say those words to someone, I want to make sure I really mean them. I have definitely thought "love" when I'm with him, I genuinely care about him and I like him in my life. But I still don't see long ter...